Nothing 4 Nothing

$21.10 for 150 checks from my bank...it is highway robbery!!! Plus I had to talk to someone in India who I did not understand, and I had him repeat things...it was a nightmare. I will think twice before I order from my bank again, but I was in a bind this time. Live and Learn!!!
I woke up depressed again today and I could not shake it off until after 11AM. I felt very fearful all day, even my hands trembled...why?? I know I fear many things especially the future but living with this knot in my stomach can't go on, it is not good. I know I can not predict the future and no one knows what will happen, it is all in God's hands...but....tell that to my bran. It was hot again here today about 98 degrees. At least I wrote a letter to Italian today and added some to my story, so all was not lost. When I feel this way what I write is dark...and when I am happy I write happy things. But I am seldom happy...