Nothing 4 Nothing

100 degrees I am sitting here crying, not because I am not going to the wedding, but because I won't be chatting with Doha everyday. It was so hard knowing tonight was the last of our 3 and 4 hour chats. He made me laugh, he made me cry, he taught me so much in these few weeks. Funny I feel closer to him then I do to most of my relatives. I know we will chat a little bit now and then, but it won't be the same, we will go on our own separate paths and gradually grow away from each other. It is just making me cry thinking about it. At the end of our chat session neither one of us could type anything, I didn't know what to say and neither of us knew how to end it. We just looked at the monitor and did nothing at all. Finally he had to log off...I couldn't. I wish I felt this way about more friends, but most never understand me...they never know me...why is it possible for this one man thousands of miles away to know me so well?
I don't understand it. He knew how I was feeling by the way I typed the messages to him, by the length of time I took to hit each letter, by my answers etc. Sometimes we would answer each others questions before they were typed and sent. I know this is silly to feel so strongly about someone I met on the net June 25th...but our friendship is deep... and I already miss him.