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100 degrees....K owes me big time for telling me to ask D about the 1967 war. He was on his soap box for at least a 1/2 hour. Sure K let the dummy ask political questions....lol Anyhow I learned some history and most importantly how to play pool on the net. That was fun, one game lead to another and another and I was online 5 hours. I must have an addictive personality. In the meantime R had been trying to call me and was upset over the constant busy signal. R has all day to phone, that will teach R about always calling at night. They are having a "guitaracue" in NJ...what is that? I haven't a clue...but what a name for an event. lol I may call MV later...not sure. I haven't heard from the "drama queen" in awhile because I haven't replied to her emails.
My head my body can do without the stress she gives me...and I feel calmer as of late. I may have to lose a friend to save my sanity. I have oodles of projects to do inside and outside the house, but I don't feel like doing anything that requires work. Think I will watch some TV....

99...I'm guessing. I am not in a good mood, R stood me up again! R promised to stop by this morning...I got up early...waited...waited...didn't know if I should eat lunch or not, finally about 2PM I called R and R said..."I have to many things to do, I'm not coming over." Couldn't R have the courtesy to let me know that so I didn't mess up my day. So I am pissed!!!! It is my own fault to believe what R tells me, guess I have a hard head and don't learn very fast. I just don't do things like that to people. Therefore today was a dud and I accomplished nothing of interest. I just got tired hanging around...I even stayed off the internet, in case R would call me.
Dang it...that is all I can say right now. Need to cool off and calm down and peace out I reckon.

100 degrees.....I was so sleepy this morning....and now it is nearly bed time and I am wide awake. Watched LOST, it was mostly about Sayid....Sigh. He is definitely eye candy. Saw him on ET and in real life he speaks with a British accent...so damn cute. lol He is making a movie called The 10 Commandments....and is nominated for an Emmy for Best Supporting actor in a series.
I had to take the phone off hook to watch LOST, because R will call...Isn't that awful what I resort to doing? Chatted with D for 31/2 hours, that is some sort of a record for me. Laughed so much, big discussion about D saying "yes...but" and another about something flying in the sky..flaging, fraying, fluring...you had to be here...lol I heard from M in Italy...so I am happy today. I think the people across the street are moving, but I haven't heard. They are doing suspicious activities, like taking stuff out of the garage by the box loads...and standing in the driveway looking up and down the street. I feel like a spy watching them...but if the K's move you heard it here first. There was a big fire in Sacto tonight, at an office bldg.

101 degrees....I am going to sound off. R called today and told me what to buy for A's wedding. Not hinting, she told me, the gift, where to find it on the web, the price etc. Why do I have to purchase something from the registry? Is that the law? Why can't I buy what I like and what I think the bride and groom will like? Why can't I spend the amount of money that I can afford and not put the gift on my credit card? I told her "I'll check it out" but I do not intend to follow her orders. I am on a limited budget, I can not even buy what I like for myself. So will my ordinary gift not coming from the registry be of less value, less liked? Will it be tossed in the closet or sold on ebay? I already feel it would not be appreciated. Would a check be better? But I can not afford a big fat check, so would my small amount be laughed at? Why is it suddenly this wedding isn't as much fun as I thought it will be?

102 today more to come. Just watched Tuck Everlasting on tv. At first I thought it wasn't going to be good, but turned out to be an entertaining odd sort of movie and I'd recommend it. Hung around the house most of the day, didn't do anything exciting. I think most people around here are staying indoors and under the a/c...the neighborhood was quiet, except for some who were bar-b-quing, I could smell it and really made me hungry. I feel a bit down today for no particular reason, couldn't sleep last night, got out of bed about 2 AM and channel surfed for awhile, this morning of course I couldn't wake myself up. Lance Armstrong won his 7th Tour de France!!!
How incredible is that? I think he is such a national hero. Ciao

Tonight is XFest...wish I was there, they expect 18000 people. Temp today 102. I slept late, 8:30AM...don't know why I needed so much sleep. Talked to Doha 3 1/2 hours...time flew by, I learned to write cat..ketan...in Arabic and some letters. There are 2 types of Arabic writing one is the type you use everyday and one is an artistic form, very pretty, the words almost resemble the item you are writing. He showed me a picture he had of ancient artistic writings taken from the Koran, it was beautiful...sort of reminded me of Egyptian hieroglyphics* (spelling) I am learning something new everytime I chat with him. Peace through understanding...wasn't that the theme of one of our World's Fairs? Where did that thought disappear to? Japan had a strong quake. The heatwave throughout the west is really bad right now, so many days in a row like this....maybe the world is coming to an end? I got my old Brownie camera out of closet and put it up on a shelf, and put a old Kodak camera Mom by it...something different. That's all...

97 today....but in 100's all the coming week. I went out of the house!!! Yipee!!! It felt like years since I've been somewhere. My car didn't leak anything so I didn't go to garage to have it checked. Watched the movie Devil Pond on tv but had to take the phone off hook at 9PM because R calls around 9:15 because R has nothing better to do. When R hears a busy signal R assumes that I am on the computer. This deceit is weighing heavy on my conscience....I don't know what else to do. Jett has a new song called Radio...it is good, they are a good band. Xfest is tomorrow in downtown, 32 bands....it is a big event. Listening to Creep by Damian Rice on the radio....wow...it is sad song... " am a weirdo--what am i doing here--don't belong here---"
words to cheer me up...lol I had a difficult time connecting to internet, had to select new phone numbers, and I did, and the pc asked me to do it again and again...grrr. I think I got it right now. I hate change.

Only 98 today...but 100 coming tomorrow. Woke up with a stomach ache and my head felt dizzy...it took awhile to shake it off, but I am better now. C said her dog looked like he gained wait and that she didn't know what I did to him but Sam actually likes to be petted now. I told her my fish story, she thought it was funny. Drama Queen is at it again, I don't know why I bother to read her emails...I should delete them when I see them and spare myself all this anxiety. Today in chat D a muslin and I a Christian discussed the pro and cons of Buddhism.
Maybe if the world converted to this peaceful religion things wouldn't be so bad? Got D to download "Picture" I love that song... I desperately needto get out of the house, with the hot temps and the dog I haven't gone anywhere in a week, and I think I have cabin fever. I think I owe everyone I know a snail mail...it will take me until December to catch up. DL wrote she found a baby raccoon and is raising and training it. Received a letter from PLP in Italy, and he wrote that he was sorry to hear that Aunt Mary "Disappeared"...his choice of words made me
chuckle. Salaam.

Tuesday 101...Today 100....in case anyone is keeping track. Watched a funeral on tv for 2 cops who died in a helicopter crash last week, it was so sad. Yesterday I wanted to changed the fish bowl water and I got Seymour in the palm of my hand and when I went to transfer him to another bowl there was no fish in my hand!! I looked on the floor, in sink, looked at Sam to see if he was licking his lips..and finally found the fish looking flat as a pancake on the counter. I quickly tried to pick him up by his tail and a piece of his tail broke off. So I slid him to the edge of counter top and I cupped him in my hand again and put him back in the bowl. I kept watching him to see if he swam around and ate...and after the shock wore off he was ok. Good grief.
They owners picked up their pets late this afternoon...and what did I get for 9 days of service?
2 postcards and a tiny souvenir spoon. They don't realize how much work it was keeping the dog inside. walking him, I re-arranged my life and my schedule for the dog....I didn't expect a payment...but something nicer....so I am pissed off. When I am asked to dog sit again please someone remind me to just say "no" Right now I am not in a very good mood. Maybe after I watch LOST I will feel better....

Only 102 today....a nothing day...Sam woke me up before 6AM barking, he didn't want to go outside he just wanted to play. I crawled back in bed. Yawn. R called again after 9PM and foolishly I answered the phone, it is my own fault because I never learn. R didn't actually talk to me R was fiddling around with computer and gave me half sentences and half questions...annoying. I miss out doing what I intended to do...for what? I may just leave the phone off the hook when I don't want to be bothered. If I let the machine answer R calls around to everyone I know asking where I went etc. It is a no win situation....unless maybe I tell R the truth, but that is just to easy. lol Sorry I complain so much...but I can do what I want on my blog....right? I need to feel that I am in control of something, because my life as it is seems to be spinning out of control and I feel so helpless.

Saturday 107, today 106.....more to come. Bakersfield 109, Palm Springs 118.
The hot temperatures are exhausting, my energy level is zero. Don't even feel like doing the things I like to do, never mind the ones I don't like to do. Invented a new planet with D... "Poo-da-sha" a planet inhabited by Italian speaking French poodles....lol What else is there to do on a hot summer afternoon... Sam's "mama" called from Boston...3 more days to go. There was a show on TV about Border Collies rounding up sheep, and the owner blew dog whistles and his dog barked, Sam really enjoyed that program...and he loves Spanish TV cartoons a great deal. Do I want to get a dog of my own? Not in the near future. R called again after 9PM, I let the recorder answer, I was in the middle of watching American Giggilo. I need to tell R gently that is not a good time for me....but I don't want to hurt R's feelings so I duck the issue. I haven't done anything about my car yet, I can't deal with another problem...

Daily weather report...106 degrees today....more to come. Didn't do much all day...Sam is acting nutty, he hides under the kitchen table for long periods of time...for unknown doggie reasons.
R is calling me after 9PM everyday....it interfers with my tv viewing, how do I tell R to stop, as R has all day to call... I was moody this afternoon, and checked to see if Doha was on line, and he was...and he always manages to put a smile on my face. He let me pick out which shirt to wear to a wedding he is attending tomorrow...sweet. I can't say it enough, I was at the end of my rope the day we net-met and he saved my sanity. God/Allah works in mysterious ways...I told him I believe in one God, who is known by many names. He agrees....our religions may not believe that, but I honesly think in heaven we will find every religion that has a belief in God, no matter what He is called...many people will be surprised. Well...guess that is all. A note to Z, everyone misses you.

A blazing 104 here today. I stayed indoors as much as possible...as the old saying goes it was to hot to trot. Sam is a little better behaved....fish is still alive. I lost my cell phone last night, looked high and low for it, and finally located it between the car seats. How it got there is anyone's guess. Today has been hot and boring, that is all I can say. It is to hot to think.
I got a recipe for Cat Litter Cake...I couldn't copy and paste it here, so if you are interested email or send me a comment and I will give it to you. It looks gross but you can eat it...you can...not I can..lol Talked for 3 hours with Doha today...I always feel better after we chat, as I said before he is so funny. I read 53 million people go into chat rooms every month, what are the odds that we connected? And when I needed a laugh and a hug so desperately...it is mind blowing.
He promises to keep up our friendship...hope it is true. There are a couple people I met in chat over 3 years ago who I still correspond by emails. I am going to go cool off now.

Temperature today 103...but who's counting? Another problematic day...my car developed a hiss and a oil leak, I don't even want to think about it right now. The dog is very stubborn, he will not listen to anything I say, he gives me dirty looks, he doesn't bark at strangers who come to the door... he doesn't want to eat...now I am seriously changing my mind about getting a dog.
I lost my cell phone for a time...I searched all over the house and finally found it between the car seats...how it god there is anyone's guess. Yesterday I forgot to close the garage door so it stayed open all night...the dog is making me crazy, I don't know if I am coming or going. I am feeding the fish his 3 types of fish food twice a day, and so far I have no problems with the fish. I miss not chatting with Doha...I don't know where he is or maybe why he is not chatting with me...
I think I will go to bed now, but I am not sleepy....

Temperture 102. Today has not been a good one. First I tried to log on to internet and my server would not connect...well actually it would dial up, check password and connect then display "Action Cancelled" I could not get onto net or email. I called server and the recorded message told me "your account can not connect with this phone number"...like what the heck?
I called server and was on hold a long time, so decided to give it one more try and it worked.
Second the garbage collector failed to pick up my trash. I saw the truck whiz past my house earlier but I didn't give it much thought at the time. So had to call them back. Third SAM the dog, he has only been here 4 hours and I wish the hell I never said yes. The dog will not listen...I let him go in the backyard, and he is still outside. He refuses to come back in the house. I open the door for him and he runs in the opposite direction, he won't let me near him, I tried to bribe him with doggie treats...nothings works. How will I survive with that dog until next Wednesday? I already feel as if I had it. The weather people say we will have 100 degree days all this week and next...oh happy days.

When its hot it's hot!! Wednesday its suppose to hit 106 here. I knew these tempertures were coming but not all at once. Went to grocery store this morning and that was about it. Getting the house "dog proofed" for Sam. I can't think of anything to write about...that is a first.
Maybe I will add on this blog later.....

I had a terrible time with pop-ups while on th net today and don't know what to do about them.
Weather report for week indicates every single day will be 100 degrees plus!! I sure don't like hearing that news. Guess I'd better brace myself. Found out I will also be taking care of L's fish the same time that I dog-sit. Chatted for a time with Doha...watered front yard...talked on phone...that was my day, how was yours? All day I felt sleepy. I slept well last night, but tired today, can not get the energy to do anything. Are these the dog days of summer? That could be the reason. Well, I just wanted to check in and out on my blog.

C and company are at a car show this weekend while R and gang are camping at Fresno Dome.
Yours truly meanwhile sits in front of the computer screen. Such is life, you learn to roll with the punches. I was up early and did some work around the yard...dog proofing for "Sam's" visit.
TV has been terribly boring...I went on chat and in the most part that was also a drag. M sent me a copy of what her Mom wrote about her childhood and teen years, it was amusing. I want to make a couple copies of it to share. Today is C's birthday....Happy Birthday OLD Girl!!.... lol
I have been filling up her email with ecards I think are funny. I awoke at 4:13AM feeling startled and my body felt all nervous. I don't recall dreaming. I got out of bed and walked around the house, then watched the telly for awhile. I wonder why that happens? I don't like it. Trying to catch up on snail mail...not doing very good at it. That's all she wrote.....byeeee

My prayers go out to everyone hurt and killed in today's terrorist attack in London. It is so terribly sad and tragic. What do we have to do to make it all stop? I wish it was 1955 when everyone led a "Leave it to Beaver" life. Had lunch at Marie Callanders today with C, we both had fish and chips and salads...good food. Drove by the house I once occupied, it looks about the same as it did back then, but the junipers in front are huge now, I couldn't get over the size. I guess it is official and I will dog sit Sam. Sure hope it works out this time. Got A's shower invitation in the mail, just what I needed...lol I just don't have the money to spend. Big Brother 6 started tonight on tv, I have been watching it for years, it is an escape from my own reality.
C neighbor has an experience with a medium. Her daughter died a year ago, the mother was walking in the mall, when a stranger came up to her and asked if she had a daughter who recently died. The medium told her that her daughter was fine, and wants her to stop crying, and that her daughter is working with children now. Yes...we work in the hereafter...and you thought it would be one enternal vacation....wrong! lol Stories like that blow my mind...I am a believer in spirits, ghosts, hauntings, reincarnation etc. I had my own spiritual encounter with RAD 3 years ago.....but that is a long story. Enough. God Bless the UK.

I want to marry a hippie! I love hippies. Their appearance, their counterculture attitude,
their profoundly deep thoughts...their idealism, generosity, honesty, peacefulness etc.
I love long hair on men, jeans, t-shirts and love beads. I love guys who are artistic and can play an instrument, guitar or piano preferred. Guys smoke a little pot while listening to the Dead, Stones or Arlo Guthrie. Some one free spirited and also protective...passionate about life and mystical. Someone who will convince you with his words and not his fists. A man who allows people to pray to any god without pushing upon them his religious beliefs. A guy who mixes aspects of Buddhism and Christianity, Islam, Judaism and Native American concepts into his prayers. Someone who meditates, burns incense and loves the beach. There has to be someone out there just like that? Contact me...lol. Lets make love not war. Right on! Peace Out!!

Live8 was awesome yesterday, I enjoyed all the performers very much. I hope Live 8 accomplishes what it set out to do. Do you think the leaders of G8 actually listen to rock and rollers? I doubt it very much...but it is worth a try. I haven't been able to sleep well during this current heat wave, I awake many times for no apparent reason. Today has been one of the most boring days on record. I wish I had cable or satellite tv. Tomorrow is the 4th, I hope it is more quite than it was last year. The people at the corner house had bottle rockets, illegal stuff,
I was afraid they would start a house fire. Lots of firecrackers and cherry bombs around here as well. You don't see any dogs or cats in the neighborhood for 3 days afterwards. For some reason I feel very melancholy and alone....sigh.

101 degrees today and counting.....I have free advice from J. Do not try to un-stick your computer screen button with a kitchen knife!!! *lol* J tried it, a computer repairman has been sent to J's house. I always said truth is stranger then fiction. Besides being hot I am also a bit down today. I spend to much time thinking about things. I have money problems...or I should say the lack of it. Who can I discuss this with? I don't feel comfortable telling people, so I wear a mask and act like everything is alright. If I tell people the truth they don't like to hear it, they would rather that I say something that will make them laugh...and guess I don;t blame them. But it is not doing my nervous system any good keeping things bottled up inside me.
Anyhow...now we need to worry about mosquitos carrying the Nile Virus, the Bird flu...and invasion from the planet Mars...enough already...I will bring this lame blog to a halt.