Nothing 4 Nothing

I wish I had something wise or witty to write here...but sadly I do not. I snail mailed a letter to Italy, those guys have a computer and are on the internet but for some reason want to correspond by snail mail. The weather outside is hot in the low 90's, hot weather makes me feel lazy...er...lazier maybe. Ever heard of energy zappers? They are people who when you are around them zap all your energy away from you, they make you feel wasted and all you want is to get far away from them. They are not mean people but they are zappers. I know a couple, whenever I see them and we talk, in person or by the phone, even emails I get tired. Sometimes I just have to avoid them for awhile until my energy level gets back to where it should be. I am still feeling sad about Aunt M's demise but I will get over it. I lost my Dad when I was 16 and Mom 3 years ago... Don't you hate that phrase "we lost Joe today" Lost him? Where did he go?
Are you trying to find him? Why did he run away? There should be another way to tell people that some one has died, why not just say the it...Joe died today. And don't give me that crap that he "is in a better place"...he is not here with me, am I so bad that he had to die to get away from me to be in a better place? Couldn't I have made it a better place? My thoughts are just swirling so I will call it quits.