Nothing 4 Nothing

Ever have a day of nothingness? That is what I did, that is what I accomplished today, nothing!!
I hate nothing days, I feel if I did nothing today what can I do tomorrow...less than nothing? And if I do less than nothing tomorrow, does absolutely nothing follow, then nothing about nothing...where does ths vicious cycle end? Weather reports all week called for heavy rain today, and guess what nothing happened, because today is a nothing day. Looked for mail and nothing was in my mailbox, there were no new messages on my answering machine...let us declare February 28 National Good for Nothing Day and let the citizens of America unite in what we do best....nothing!!!

Another weekend about dogs. J is looking to adopt a chihuahua, she is going to look at some dogs tomorrow. Hope she finds one she likes. Looked at old photographs today, it was bittersweet, some brought back fond memories others made me sad. It is a shame we can not time travel back to time and places we took for granted and now treasure I saw pictures of myself as a child at Christmas, going to first grade, the Senior prom and graduation..old friends who promised to always stay in touch, that I did not see or hear from again. Photos of relatives who have passed and of those still here...vacation, wedding, dog, horse...zillions of pictures in a cardboard box.
I pray everyday for Jimmie Wallet and RAD...these 2 strangers touched my heart and soul. Some say I should get over them...why...they helped me deal with my own feelings and life. How soon people want to "forget" That is what is wrong with life.
Weather here is cloudy, may rain tomorrow. Love ya all.

Went with a friend to look at wedding dresses at a ritzy shop. The gowns were elegant, graceful and expensive. Would be nice to have enough money to buy anything you like...but that is not the case here. Too many mirrows in the place, it is very uncomfortable to see yourself in 4 angles and in good lighting! LOST was on last night, and I am addicted to that series, I love Sayid, a tall dark handsome man with an accent is all I need in life. The sun is out today but more rain is due in a few days. Is it time to start building the ark?

R and I went out of town today. Bought apples and pears at a roadside stand. Ate lunch at KFC.
The cloud formations on the drive were so unique and vivid. Yesterday Woodland had not 1 but 4 tornados. One did some damage to homes, but lucily not major. California weather has been weird. Visited L for awhile, he was in a good mood, kept singing us songs and telling stories about "the old country" For some reason he sang "You Are My Sunshine" I was told Grandpa B used to sing that song when he had a little too much to drink. He died before I was born.

Another Sunday....A phoned we had a chat about his dogs, how boring is that when we can't find anything else to discuss? It is ok, just hearing his voice made me happy. I sort of want a dog, a chihuahua, fox terrier..something small. No I won't carry it around and dress the dog like Paris Hilton does, although I must admit her dog is cute. What is her dogs name? Tinkerbell I think.
Southern Calif has had more rain, more floods and mudslides. La Conchita is closed off to everyone, officials think the mountain is going to go agan, so sad. Don't believe the song "it never rains in southern California".... it is a big lie!

It has been raining cats n' dogs here all day. Hopefully the 'sun will come out tomorrow'...gee, where did I hear that before? More rain in LaConchita...I still think alot about Gator and wonder how he is doing? News is already warning about West Nile, when will all these warnings about everything and anything stop? News gives me a headache. Watched the movie "Witness" for the upteenth time, it is one of my favorites...but not my favorite all time favorite. Clinton and Father Bush are making their rounds in Indonesia...who would have thought? That's all folks.

I was stood up waiting at the corner yesterday by someone who promised me a ride. It wasn't a big deal, but I am miffed that I got myself ready to go and waited and waited for nothing. Finally I called this person who said they forgot. Can I be so easily forgotten about? If I was gone tomorrow would anyone even notice? Sad isn't it? Some lives touch so many others, they are valued and prized and talked about long after they depart from this world...and many are only forgotten. It doesn't mean the "forgotten" were not as valuable, but maybe not as outgoing, not as they say "people persons" and didn't touch so many other lives, maybe they are shy, private souls, who go about daily life not making a splash, they are caring and loving and compassionate but not like the 'remembered' ...they are forgotten. For whatever good it may be, for those who feel alone and misunderstood, remember there are others in the same boat and I love you.

"I am a dragon...who got into the wine...I drunk...and I shrunk...I'm having a good time"
Don't know where that came from, but I had to get it down on paper...on blog?
Another nothing 4 nothing day here, one day is just like the one before. I wish I was in Hawaii, blowing on a concha shell, sipping a little bubbly doing the hula...
Alhoa..

G gave me flowers...and a card. The day started out sunny but soon turned into rain.
I think Valentine's Day is a over rated holiday, we don't need a special day to say "I love you" that should happen or be known 365 days per year.
Last nights Grammy's was long...glad U2 won and Green Day...Yeah!!
This weather is making me sleepy. Have a nice Heart's Day everyone.

The clouds are back and we may have rain showers all week.
It has been a busy few days here. I cleaned the kitchen..ugh...bleak..bah!!
Friday R and I went to see our Uncle who is 85 and lives out of town, he is doing well. Afterwards we had lunch at Taco Bell.
Today C and I went to see D's 1950 Buick that he is restoring. D had it painted jet black with red flames on the hood and sides...totally cool looking. A car "Fonzi" would give up his motorcycle for.
Tonight is the Grammy's on TV, I watch every year. Don't know who is nominated..
last year I liked Picture by Kid Rock and Look What You've Done by Jett. They have to be the best new group...ya think? Ever hear Stardust by Willie Nelson? Awesome.

I dropped a bottle of bubble bath and it broke all over the floor. You would not think bubble bath would become such a horrid mess on the floor. I swear the liquid grew and multiplied as I mopped and now the entire house smells like a florist shop... the scent is powerful and overwhelming.
Went grocery shopping and had only a few dollars in my wallet, had to leave the grocery in bags by the checkout stand and go back home for money. I had cash in my wallet yesterday and I know I didn't spend it.
Emailed Extreme Home Make Over, suggested they could do something for the Wallet Family in La Conchita.

The Eagles did not "soar" today, but they played a good game. The half-time "granny entertainment" was excellent, the commercials were alright, nothing outstanding this year, Budweiser horses are always good, lots of monkey commercials for some reason.
D went to a Super Bowl party, they had lots of frozen foods and chips. When L was here from England he ordered a burger and chips at a restaurant, and was disappointed when he got a hamburger and a package of potato chips. He wanted french fries, they are called chips in the UK, potato chips are crisps. Cherrio

OK, I will admit it that I watch the Super Bowl for the commercials and half-time entertainment, whenever the San Francisco 49'ers are not playing? Is that so wrong?
I have been trying to write the next great American novel in my spare time...it is more like a hobby a project that keeps me out of trouble. But I am up against writers block at the moment.
I have outlined a beginning and a middle, but there is no ending to my tale. I am also working on a family genealogy and currently hit a brick wall.
R is so involved in making wedding plans with A that I feel like I no longer exist in R's life...or memory. Maybe I am jealous...maybe I'm selfish...maybe I'm depressed? I just don't appreciate people dropping out of my life when they find something better to do, it makes me feel like a doormat.

I was eager to watch the Super Bowl half time show this Sunday. Until a friend said that Paul McCartney is "granny entertainment..he is a senior citizen" Boy, that spinned me back to reality, I guess I never thought of hm as old. The Beatles are like icons, stuck somewhere in time, where one is ageless. I adored John Lennon, he was my favorite.
Not much happening around the old homestead. I lack ambition to do the things I should be doing...hope that changes soon.

Early this morning I listened to a radio talk show, a woman was discussing her telepathic coversations with Keiko the whale. I must find better usage for my time!! *lol*
Watched LOST rerun on TV last night, I am totally addicted to that series...I search for hidden clues, listen carefully to the dialog etc. I question the 3 pens in last nights episode when Claire was to sign adoption papers, none of the pens worked, the pen colors were gold, red and silver...in a earlier show on island there was a variety of pens that also didn't work..what do they represent? Ok Ok already...I must find better usage for my time!!!
It was foggy here until 11AM, after that the sun came out. The sunshine did not restore my ambition, and I still feel depressed. I need something to lift my spirits, but what?
I will search the net next maybe join a game of Hearts. Alright already...I must find better usage for my time!!!!

I read the ground hog saw his shadow today and was boo'ed. Poor lil ole ground hog, it wasn't his fault. So I guess according to tradition we will have 6 more weeks of winter.
It doesn't look like winter here, sun is out and temperture near 60.
P emailed and the family may be coming for a visit in March. will be nice to see them again.
I have been having weird dreams about pumpkin pie and lasanga, losing keys, etc etc.
The worst nightmare I ever had was being shot! I was running along a mountain path, turned a corner and a man was standing there holding a gun and he shot me. Some times I wonder if that was in my previous life?
I sort of believe in reincarnation but can't understand how at the final end of times how all these previous lives will come togther. Will we be all the different people we once were in the afterlife?
It is to confusing. I tried to google answers to this questions but no luck.
Will end my rambling.....Peace....

What exactly is Fat Tuesday? All I know that it is today.
E was here for a visit or I should say a gossip session. It was fun.
My car started this morning, didn't hear the awful sounds coming from under the hood. Will keep my fingers crossed, can't afford repair bills.
Someone said this today "being good enough...is good enough...you can't be best at everything"
So true, I spent to many years seeking approval from others, there comes a time when you don't really need anyone elses approval.
Saw J's new dog today, when he jumped up on me his paws touched my shoulders.
G'night